Fell at the first hurdle.

The first day and I fail. WTF!?! I am soo aggravated by myself. Though, in my defence, my failure is inevitable because I have to see my Nan, which means I have to eat other wise she'll force me to eat. But I presume that I shouldn't make up excuses for the fact that I cannot control myself.

Although, my failure can be considered a positive. At the current moment I have less chocolate from Easter meaning less temptation. Also, I know that I can stop myself from eating because I have done it for 4 days before without hesitation. All I need to do, is be more focused and think of the goal I will gain at the end of the 20 weeks.

Today, I came to help my mother with her job; up an equestrian yard a.k.a Stables. I love my horses and the massive show jumpers my mother works with. However, the stables can sometime plummet my self esteem. This is because you have to wear these tight trousers called Jodhpurs, which show every inch of fat and cellulite, that lives on my legs. Skinny girls wearing these jodhpurs, looking fantastic also make me feel awful. I do inspire to be able to wear jodhpurs without trying to hide or want to cry. It will just take time and determination!

Come on, I can do it!